I am jealous of superman. I am jealous of his super human speed. These days have been so jam-packed with "to-do's" that my brain is starting to spin out of control. Thank God that people can't read eachother's minds, because if anyone could read my mind, they would never think the same of me again. I try to keep myself composed for the most part (so people don't think I have completely lost it) but I have turned into quite the scatter-brain. I hope that conversations I have with people these days seem normal to them, because in my brain, I'm multi-tasking and thinking of my next thought, or what else I should be doing, or repeating my "don't forget that" list. I really do value my friends, coworkers and family and I swear I'm not trying to give a half-ass effort to our conversations so I blame my brain. Scattered brain.
I think it's a mixture of busyness at work, Mason's ever-changing-oh-so-challenging-schedule, and my ability to get all that accomplished and still have fun everyday. Who knew fun had to be scheduled into my day?!
So...while I should be cleaning my house for our house showing this Friday, or filling out Mason's paperwork to get him approved another year for back-up insurance, or writing thank-you cards to Mason's teachers (thanks Michelle for reminding me of this new parent task, haha), or planting my tomato plants, or paying bills, or the countless list of other things that need to be done soon, I'm blogging.
I'm not sure if I lack skills in prioritizing, or if I truly can't keep up with everything expected of me as a mom, or if I just don't give a shit...it's just not all getting done.
I think I should hire an assistant. Scratch that - can't afford one. Maybe I should take a personal day and catch up at home. Scratch that - those should be saved for purposes other than "house work". Maybe I should say "screw it all" and see what happens. HA! Anyone that knows me knows I wouldn't do that.
So now I'm going to go form a real to-do list. You know, one of those that you put on paper? My brain can't hold it all. I'm going to make one and take great pleasure in every dark black line I draw through the list. My house might not look perfect by Friday, but this house will sell when God says its gonna sell. My laundry might pile up for a week but at least my underwear will be clean. My bills might get in mail a little close to the due date, but at least I have money to pay them. My son and husband and our family time may take precedence over every other thing on my list, but at least I have them to love and they deserve all the time I give them.
However, if anyone finds a way to get super human speed like Superman - let me know.
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